placebo

I'm too lazy to add a picture. Gosh.

Ate:
2 provita (100)
cocoa soymilk (100)
15 almonds (150)
the best green apple ever (60)
coffee (20)
some wasabi peanuts (100)
1 tomato and a big chunk cucumber (150)
total = 680. now i have to stop for the day even though it's only 2pm. sigh

I just want my appetite to die please. I should probably stop looking at pictures of vegan food porn. When I read Unbearable Lightness I thought PDR was talking nonsense about wanting to go vegan after she got healthy. I was like "Puhlease honey, that's your disorder re-manifesting itself right'thur". How rude of me. And also inaccurate as, irony of ironies, that's how I feel now. When I think about eating animal products I can feel this slimy sensation on my tongue. Having been veggie for a while I can tell the difs; the other day I had dinner at friends. They made a delicious veggie pasta (mushroom and cream sauce, mmmm) and a chickenish one for the meat-eaters. I got a bit tipsy and snuck a strand of their leftover pasta to chomp a while later. Omg. The sliminess; congealed chickenish gunk all over the pasta! Cold, gunky lardness. Which just tastes like... kindof salty... and... well... fatty. Apparently it's an evolutionary thing that our tastebuds recognise high fat foods (so you chomp them and don't die in an ice age or something)?You know that shit you have to soak, scrub, rinse, soak, scrub of a pan after you cook meat? That grey, globular mush that makes you think "Mmmmm, I should get my cholesterol checked," ... well, now, after 2 and half years, stuff cooked with meat tastes like that gunk looks: Gross. This is not a claim of any kind of superiority on my part. I went pescitarian as an experiment (and found that it's actually pretty easy, but I was no great meat-lover) and I'm just as shocked as anybody to find that, yeessssssssss, veggies just make me happier and eating meat seems weird, and a tad yucky, now!