enraged

oh hawt dahm.
Miranda Kerr.
stunning.
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Fuck.
I feel so angry.
Like I want to throw things and smash things
like a stroppy, thrashing, ludicrous child
It's TBB.
My parents.
everything
equals
RAGE.
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How can he call me a friend,
and sleep with me,
when he knew that my best friend had just died,
and that I was depressed
and that I might have feelings for him
What a fucktard
Fucktarded
Seriously
What a! What the! Gah!
Why do I even still think about him?
I wish I could just 'eternal sunshine of the spotless mind' this shit
and erase any part of my memory that includes him.
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Ate today:
grapefruit
coffee
gum
4 brownies
salad (feta, tomato, soy sauce, cucumber, pilchard).
Bleh.
Schmeh.
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weight: 62
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I hate my body.
I feel huge.
I look huge.
Like second trimester huge.
Fuck this.
FUCK IT ALL.
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Haven't purged in two days.
That's one minor improvement.
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I'm feeling seriously nuts;
clearly in a besotted-with-anger sort of a way.
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CHRIST.
I just need to stop. fucking. eating.
keep blogging
keep owning-up to all my shit
stay accountable
don't purge
get work done
fuck balls
FUCK.