that over whelming useless feeling is bearing down, down, down

67. fuck

1/4 muesli wth fat free milk
1 x coffee
huge salad (soy polony, baked beans, cheddar, feta, spinach, tomato, cucumber)
1/4 cup yoghurt
2 x ricecakes with cheddar, tomato, soy polony

why are you eating like a normal person
i disgust me
i have to do better
i have to
i have to
drowning in despair