In my secret life...

MKA
skinny
love
burn
baby
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We all have a secret life
or multiple secret lives
running through our minds
unravelling or creating themselves
all day every day
Some of our secrets can be shared;
desire,
fantasy,
lust,
want,
hope.
Some we can't;
taboo/warning/no/shame
(desire)(fantasy)(lust)(want)(hope)
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Of course Edie is a 'shhhhhhh' thing.
A (((secret))) thing.
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Shhhhhh.
(((Don't tell on me.)))
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So my weight is high once again.
It's stressed me out beyond belief once again.
So, despite wanting to recover,
somewhatsortofnotreally,
I've come back to you to keep on recording.
My same old bullshit.
I'm sorry.
But I did kinda miss you guys.
My dear invisible friends.
: )
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Today:
An apple.
Black Coffee
BrownieChocolatemilkToastAvocadoCaramelcupcakeBrownieSoyprotein.
purge
ANXIETY
Black coffee.
Oreo McFlurry.
[seriously. they're almost 600 calories. o'm'gawd.]
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I need to be thin.
for me
for him
for them
for us
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I LOVE YOU
YOU ARE HUMAN
BE GOOD TO YOURSELF
BE FAIR TO YOURSELF
but don't bother being kind to yourself
it don't work