63. sadly she ate

Was absolutely exhausted today (eeesssssaaaaayyyyy all nighter) so sadly, and predictably, I had a bit of a feast today; the usual minimal muesli for breakfast, popcorn (with some caloricly dense sour cream and chives seasoning), followed by two servings of a rather bizarre yet delicious corn-cheese-chilli-vegetarian burger concoction. So now I weigh 63kgs. And I'm seeing the boy tomo; like seeing in the usual context (on campus) and not to have hours of passionate sex (which is how I would prefer it. natch). *sigh* I'm not feeling motivated to diet; which is mad as usually a stupendous crush motivates me (I mean just look how I was earlier this year when I was lustingafter W. Man oh man. I've never hated myself so much. And, yes, it was fuckin' A). But I know have roughly 20 days until Coldplay... and 8 kgs to loose... that's 1 kg every 2.5 days. PLEASE GOD. I need to get my mind right. I need to restrict like there is no tomorrow. Water, cigarrettes, muesli, apples, tomatoes, ricecakes, marmite and chewing gum. That is all I need in my life right now. Have to. Must. Fuck'sakes!



ngggggggggg!
Amazing.
want. to. be. you.



Please.
Make me thin for him.
Oh wait.
No-one can do this for me.
FUCKTARD
Hungry.
for.
the.
next.
20.
days.
pleasepleaseplease
mustmustmust
*55*