"new girl"

I do choose life.
I really really do.
I would never not choose it.
Not after our beautiful A.
No not never.
But I want to be thin.
So bad, so fucking bad, goddamnitalltohell!
(she says's with a little smile)
I need one day at a time.
Consistency, my friends and neighbours, is what I need.
Yes indeed.
*
I got a dinner thing tomorrow night yeah.
TBB may be there.
New boy probably can't make it.
What shall I do tomorrow?
Sleep, no eat, go to campus... get some frikkin work done...
yeah.
I do choose life, I do.
But this is a part of my life too.
;)