oh socialising

having a life makes you fat
but if I don't have a life who will make 'wowee' comments when I get thin?
Tricky that.
Chilled with N and A, and N's cousin T this afternoon.
Everybody brought eats.
Terrible!
A brought black forest cupcakes and prawn chips.
N brought mini-brownies and chocolate.
I provided rusks and chocolate biscuits.
Eish.
So today I ate lotsa prawn chips, lotsa chocolate, about 5 mini brownies, 2 rusks,
1 cup of coffee, 1 cup of tea, both milk no sugar.
And one marmite and cottage cheese rice cake for lunch/breakfast before the social/eat fest.
Will probs have some more ricecakes as above for 'supper'
even though I shouldn't...
and there's an evening plan tomorrow
and a breakfast plan and a easter braai on Sunday
motheroffuck gonna get so FAT
but I can't let myself get freaked
because then I start purging
which just leads to more purging
which leads to more freaking out
which leads to starving
which leads to more binging
(rinse and repeat)
must maintain a cool head
food is an inevitable part of life
*breathe*