I'm not a fan of reverse thinspo, but, regardless...

Beth Ditto, one hell of a voice, one hell of a body.
Sometimes I feel like my grotesque body,
probably enunciated by my disproportionately
derisive self-image, is LOUD. l-o-u-d loud.
Like I walk into a room and I feel like she looks;
... like a porpus in a neon tutu.

I feel like my appearance is literally a burden on bystanders.
Like the very sight of me is likely to singe your corneas irreparably.
I feel uneasy, out of place, no matter where I am;
'How dare I actually force these people to look at me.'
'What kind of crazy person am I; to actually think that the sight of me
belongs out in the real world.'

I feel so large, so obnoxiously, rudely, excessively fat.
Sometimes I think I'll look in the mirror and see giant blob of lard,
wearing a disco ball,
staring back.